Sometimes i wonder why life is so fucked up .

I am 17 already , yet i can't do what i want .

Although i have a awesome boyfriend , great girlfriends around me , yes , i am happy .

But humans will never be contented ?

I want my freedom .

I hate it when i feels this way .

I will always start to turn grumpy and my attitude start to throw like freefree only .

Then when i cool down or thought about it , i feel so regret to the person i attitude to .

But if the person really understand me , he/she will not mind instead being more understanding ?

However ,

I should not stick to Alex too much 2 cause who knows what the future is like .

Maybe , just maybe , we will not be together f o r e v e r .

Cause nothing last forever .

I finally believed it .

Thinking back , i used to be that small little girl , believing in such fairy tales .

When you are meant to be the person you love , it will be .

You no need to pray and hope that the relationship of yours will last f o r e v e r .

If you love a person , you will want him/her to be happy .

Therefore ,

I hope Alex yap will be happy forever .

With love ,

Valerielee .